Being a business owner...client cannon fodder - Part II

Well...after some semi-conherent rant in Part I, there are still lingering doubts before I took the plunge, mainly due to:

• I have a wife and 2 growing kids. This is a commitment on a gargantuan scale for somebody who does not come from a decent financial background. (to be described in the next few points)
• I am the only son of my mother who has NO pension, NO savings, NO EPF and NO life insurance. Basically I am her ATM withdrawals.
• My dad screwed up his finance really horribly (yes you did!) and made some ill advised financial decisions and to cut things short, I had to settle my study loan (in Singapore dollars...roughly 2.5x and it was in 5 figures still). On top of that, he is not from a well to do family either. 
• So in total, my upkeep is practically 3 different families, on top of my house (I bought for my mom..on her insistence), my cars (plus one for my mom also), my credit cards, my life & kids insurance (which comes about 800++/month) and the day to day pitfalls we do sometime encounter.
• I am NOT a sociable person. I do not easily make friends and I do not frequently mix around. My days are spent cooped up at home or room with my trusty ol laptop and a must-have blazing fast internet.
• And many other reasons, which I think I wont list as the list is becoming quite depressing...

I think these points are enough to make even the hardened, veteran son-of-a-gun pause...no??

However, strange as it sounds, those exact points are some of the main contributing factors that cause me to hop 13 companies in my 12 years of working life. I needed the $$$...sometimes I went to contract non-permanent mode just to bump up my salary.

I really wondered, if I came from a more sound and stable financial background, what would have happened...I guess I wont even be here to write this down....and just be another salaried shmucks (like you??? hehe :P)

Ultimately, what triggered the impending jump to entrepeneurship was my mental and emotional exhaustion and sacrifices, labouring and spending my weekends and free time, to deliver work, for the sake of making others rich. I had no qualms making others rich, but I had to make some sacrifices to my family time and health.

I gathered although going on alone with my own venture will not be less kinder to myself, but at least I was reaping the rewards, if there was any.

And at that point of time, I was very angry with the state of the software development industry in the local scene. It was full of silliness, corruption, mismanagement and downright wastages. I am the kind who always stick to this motto..

"If you do not like something, go and change it!"

And so yeah...hey you ..Mr Challenge...you threw that gauntlet...so I picked it up and spit back at your face..

And I took that bold step and wanted to do it my own way, without all this silliness and shenanigans.

What can I possibly talk about? Silliness? Shenanigans?? Well...maybe in another post....insyaAllah.

I always believe in my religion...and always have faith that He will provide susbstance for us if we work hard and pray hard...

So there you go...that's more or less how I jumped off from the Cliff of Boringness....

:)